Thursday, April 26

Doce Nome (Sweet Name)

Many of you know that today was the funeral of my friend, Sidi's, mom. Again, thanks to those of you prayed and those wrote to say you were (and are) lifting them up. God's peace and His strength showed through them today. Sidi sang this song at her mom's funeral and it's been playing in my head ever since. I just have to share it with you. I know it's in Portuguese but I've put the translated it for you...

"Doce Nome" ("Sweet Name")

Só de ouvir tua voz, (Just hearing your voice)
de sentir teu amor (Feeling your love)
só de pronunciar o Teu nome (Just pronouncing your name)
os meus medos se vão, (My fears are gone)
minha dor, meu sofrer, (My pain, my suffering)
pois de paz Tu inundas meu ser (Because your peace floods my being)

JESUS! Que doce nome! (JESUS! What a sweet name!)
que transforma em alegria o meu triste coração.. (That transforms my sad heart into joy)
JESUS! Só o teu nome é capaz de dar ao homem salvação! (JESUS! Only your name has the ability to give men salvation!)

Sunday, January 1

This Is The Year?

Great blog post I found from Tullian Tchividjian, grandson of Billy & Ruth Graham. Well worth the read this New Years...

"Today is the very first day of a brand new year. And for many that means a fresh start.


This is the year. It all starts now. We resolve to turn over a new leaf–and this time we’re serious. This time we’re really going to try, we’re not going to quit. We promise ourselves that we’re going to quit bad habits and start good ones. We’re going to get in shape, eat better, lust less, waste less time, be more content, more disciplined, more intentional. We’re going to be better husbands, wives, fathers, mothers. We’re going to pray more, serve more, plan more, give more, read more, and memorize more Bible verses. We’re going to finally be all that we can be. No more messing around.

Well…I say try. Seriously, try. You might make some great strides this year. I’m hoping to. There are a lot of improvements I’m hoping to make over the next 12 months. But don’t be surprised a year from now when you realize that you’ve fallen short…again.

For those who try and try, year after year, again and again, to get better and better, with seemingly less and less success…I have good news for you: you’re in good company!

My friend Jean Larroux sent me this powerful illustration that he got from Jack Miller.

Miller recounts the valiant efforts of Samuel Johnson (a literary giant of the 18th century) to fight sloth and to get up early in the morning to pray. Taken from Johnson’s diary and prayer journal, Jack gives us a record–through the years–of Johnson’s life-long resolutions, failures, and frustrations:
1738: He wrote, “Oh Lord, enable me to redeem the time which I have spent in sloth.”
1757: (19 years later) “Oh mighty God, enable me to shake off sloth and redeem the time misspent in idleness and sin by diligent application of the days yet remaining.”
1759: (2 years later) “Enable me to shake off idleness and sloth.”
1761: “I have resolved until I have resolved that I am afraid to resolve again.”
1764: “My indolence since my last reception of the sacrament has sunk into grossest sluggishness. My purpose is from this time to avoid idleness and to rise early.”
1764: (5 months later) He resolves to rise early, “not later than 6 if I can.”
1765: “I purpose to rise at 8 because, though, I shall not rise early it will be much earlier than I now rise for I often lie until 2.”
1769: “I am not yet in a state to form any resolutions. I purpose and hope to rise early in the morning, by 8, and by degrees, at 6.”
1775: “When I look back upon resolution of improvement and amendments which have, year after year, been made and broken, why do I yet try to resolve again? I try because reformation is necessary and despair is criminal.” He resolves again to rise at 8.
1781: (3 years before his death) “I will not despair, help me, help me, oh my God.” He resolves to rise at 8 or sooner to avoid idleness.
I love the never-quit effort of Johnson. What he chronicles sounds so much like me over the years. Try and fail. Fail then try. Try and succeed. Succeed then fail. Two steps forward. One step back. One step forward. Three steps back.

What I’m most deeply grateful for (as was Johnson) is that God’s love for me, approval of me, and commitment to me is not dependent on my success and resolve, but on Christ’s success and resolve for me. The gospel is the good news announcing Christ’s infallible devotion to us in spite of our lack of devotion to him. The gospel is not a command to hang onto Jesus. Rather, it’s a promise that no matter how weak and unsuccessful your faith and efforts may be, God is always holding on to you.

It’s ironically comforting to me as this new year gets under way that I am weak and He is strong–that while my love for Jesus will continue to fall short, Jesus’ love for me will never fall short. For, as Mark Twain said, “Heaven goes by favor. If it went by merit, your dog would get in and you would stay out.”

Thank God!

Happy New Year!"

Saturday, November 26

Oásis - The Beach

Here are some pictures from a recent trip I took to the beach. It's still technically spring here so the beaches are still pretty empty. But soon they will be full every weekend! Click on the picture below to see the entire album!


Friday, July 22

This is the Cost

Today I read the following article. (Thanks Rachel!) It captures, very well, the heart of those of us doing full-time missions away from home. Lately I've watched this being played out in the life of a dear missionary friend here in Brazil. And I've been reminded, through her, that the cost of doing what we're doing is great. But...I've also been reminded that the value of what we receive for paying the cost is far greater than the cost. In fact, that's what keeps me going. The unfailing love of my God and His blessings far outweigh any cost... 

by a Pioneer in Europe

“This is the cost,” she says to me with tears brimming. Sitting on my couch, with legs curled under her...coffee in hand, she says confidently, “...and this is part of the cost, isn't it?”

The cost-benefit ratio of following God's lead and moving overseas is complex and varied. Are there benefits? Absolutely! We can count abundant benefits to our family, our marriage, our kids and our spiritual lives. There are many, many benefits to living a life of service overseas.

But, are there costs? Of course. Yes, absolutely. There are painful, daily, humiliating and difficult costs on our lives.

I think, that said, there is a cost to any God-following obedience. ...taking up our cross, He calls it in Scripture. There is always a cost to following Christ.

The cross...although it brings innumerable benefits...is painful and heavy.

The costs of moving out of your home culture to serve alongside the Good Shepherd, though, are unique. And, these costs are heavy.

“This is the cost,” she says half smiling—half ready to cry.

My heart knows exactly what she is saying...I get it. And, I say, Yes! ...Yes, I say as my eyes now brim with tears, too.

...missing your sister's wedding.

...missing your niece’s birth.

...receiving an email (not a call) about your mother's health.

...having your young child ask you again, "Now, who is that person?... What is his name?" And, he is referring to your brother, his uncle.

...missing those in-between years when nephews grow from babies to boys...boys to men.

...missing that graduation, that 40th birthday party and the Thanksgiving dinner.

...being forgotten. Or instead, being so deeply missed that you are the source of someone's pain. Which is better?

...raising kids that are not “normal.” And, they know it.

...not having that youth group, that Grandma's mentoring, or that Christian soul friend for a young budding daughter.

...not having that booming, beautiful, vibrant worship service each week.

...having to choose which state-side family crisis is worth the price of an international flight...and having to go on your own, because tickets for the others are too expensive.

...not having a primary care doctor that knows you, has known your medical history or even your name.

...not helping with your dear friends wedding shower, or attending her dad's funeral.

... missing it. ...not being there. ...not having.

“This is the cost,” she says to me. And, I hear her heart. And, I can only agree. I nod. And, I smile with small tears brimming. “Yes, this is the cost.”

Is it worth it? ...What a crazy, silly question, we both know. Even with brimming tears we know—of course it is worth it! We hardly have to ask each other the question. We know what He has asked of us. And, we know His will is for His glory and our best. We know the benefits. We know our Good Father and His blessings. So, of course it is worth it!

Simon Peter answered him,  “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life” (John 6:68).

The benefits most definitely outweigh the cost. Always. Where else are we to go?!

But, there is a cost. And, there is a cross.

And, we must carry it. And, yes, this is the cost.

Friday, July 8

Homesick

Earlier this week I had my first bout of homesickness. But it's not homesickness like I've ever had before.

I remember when I was young and I got homesick at Brownie day camp...I just wanted to go home. 

I remember going to my grandparents one weekend and when my parents left I sat on the couch and cried because I just wanted to go home. Not even my grandma's cookies could rid me of that sadness. That's the "homesick" I'm familiar with.

This homesick was different. I didn't have the "I just want to go home feeling"...  I had the "I just want something to be familiar" feeling. I am "homesick" for the ability to communicate well. I am "homesick" for the ability to understand and be understood. I am "homesick" for the ability to know how to get places. I am "homesick" for the ability to know how things work. I am even "homesick" for the ability to know what products to buy to clean my house! (even though I don't have one yet...)

Everything is different here. Not just the language and the culture. How they cook is different. What they cook is different. How they wash dishes is different. How they live life is different.

The simple, everyday things that used to be so normal are not at all normal anymore. That is what I was "homesick" for. Everything that used to be familiar to me...

But in the midst of my "longing for the familiar," I was reminded by that still small voice that the only "familiar" thing I need in my life is Him. And He was still there. I was reminded that even though I live in South Brazil, this is not my home. My home is in heaven.....and THAT is what I should truly be "homesick" for.